One Unexpected Outcome of Announcing My Divorce on the Internet

This past week, I shared the news of my marital relationship ending. This has been the hardest choice of my life, something I was worried to talk about publicly, however how people responded more than shocked me.

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Ive seen others procedure pain openly while its still fresh, and I knew that wasnt the path for me. People can respond in all sort of manner ins which do not necessarily make difficult choices any easier. Weve been going through this for practically a year now, so when I selected to speak about the divorce on social media, it came more from a place of scars than injuries.

Heres what I wrote:

When I published this statement, I was frightened, fretted about people judging me for ruining the lives of my kids. But this thing called the Internet can in some cases amaze us.

After hitting release, I took a deep breath and started checking comments, bracing myself for the worst. What came next was completely unexpected. No hate. No vitriol. No passive-aggressive “concerns” for me. Absolutely nothing but love. Motivation. Support.

” Our family is not ending, its altering,” I stated to my kids in the hardest discussion I have ever had with them. Ashley and I are getting a divorce, and I feel conflicted in sharing this with you.
I do not believe I owe the world my vulnerability; but the work of an author, for me, has actually constantly had to do with being fully awake and participated in life, even the challenging parts. This is among those. When we share hard things, something inside of us seems to soften, and this, I think, is excellent.
I am grateful for Ashley and sad this chapter of our story is ending. We will, naturally, continue to partner in raising our kids, and I ask for the typical respect and personal privacy people request throughout such times. I guarantee you nobody has actually been more unkind to me throughout this procedure than I have been to myself.
Yes, this is a death of sorts, and the sorrow sometimes has been frustrating; but it also has been a season of personal improvement. In the disappearance of the old, I have actually seen the emergence of something brand-new. And as the clouds begin to part, I am uncertain of what that new thing will be or how it will unfold, however I can tell you this: It will be beautiful.
Thank you for the encouragement, assistance, and love for our family. A few days ago, my child Amelia drew an image of all 4 of us (plus our dog Lyric), and I enjoy what it represents. We are all standing together– in this, together. Something, I maintain, is not breaking; its altering– as is constantly the case with life. We people do not break; we change, we grow, we end up being. And if were fortunate, we bend towards the light.
A minimum of, I hope we do.

Numerous messages and comments came flooding in from acquaintances, old good friends, and even strangers– all stating they were for me, wishing my family, hoping for the very best for everyone. One reader sent this:

I do not understand what else to state. Theres no wise lesson here, no smart tie-in. I am just grateful and desired to share this message with you as a support as to why we share our stories: not just to heal others but to be recovered ourselves.

And on and on it went, one caring message after another. It was all a lot to take in, excessive to consume, that I had to go for a walk.

When the world appears to be burning down around us, while the very material of our society is being damaged by an international pandemic and political and social turmoil, I see another story being told. Still an opportunity to love and be liked, to share our stories, and be seen for what we are.

Thank you.

When we share difficult things, something inside of us seems to soften, and this, I believe, is good.
Something, I maintain, is not breaking; its changing– as is constantly the case with life. When I shared a tough part of my story, one I was inclined to hide due to fear or shame, you met me with compassion. Still a possibility to be and enjoy loved, to share our stories, and be seen for what we are.

On my walk, I believed this must be what happens, or a minimum of what can happen, when you share the parts of yourself you are most afraid to expose. Individuals can reveal up and surprise you; they can enjoy you not in spite of those things, however since of them.

Till we do this work of appearing completely as ourselves, with all the parts we hesitate to bring, we can never ever really be known in the methods we desire. When we risk rejection can we experience unconditional approval, and only. Thats what happened for me, and it blew me away. You blew me away. Ive been writing on this blog for nearly a decade now, and I never ever expected this. When I shared a tough part of my story, one I was inclined to conceal due to fear or pity, you satisfied me with kindness. And this stirred my spirit, kindling that innovative fire within, encouraging me to keep going at a time when it was tough to discover a reason to do so.

I am simply grateful and desired to share this message with you as an encouragement as to why we share our stories: not simply to recover others but to be recovered ourselves.

This, I believe, is what we mean when we use that fantastic however oft-misunderstood word “grace.” When we enable ourselves to be vulnerable, we are, of course, opening ourselves approximately be injured. However we are likewise permitting ourselves the chance to be made whole. Only in the tenderness of possible discomfort can we experience deep love.

To inform or not tell is a hard decision for so lots of factors. In your work, as somebody whose own individual story is such a part of the work, you would almost be remiss if you excluded a chapter or 2. All of us know what its like to check out a book and get to a line or remark that seems to have come out of nowhere, and we rush back through the pages we read, believing, “Did I miss something?”
Some chapters are simply much better than others.
Your audience would have seen your changes (and may have gotten an idea currently) in your present and future work. By opening like you did, you have actually permitted your circulation to be continuous and avoided the backtracking. It would be hard for you to continue to move forward if you regularly felt you had to explain to and address concerns from those who felt they missed something.
Change is modification, and just excellent or bad according to how we look at it. When we seem like weve cause d change, we have to identify it or feel the requirement to justify it, forgetting that modification is occurring all the time and we just dont acknowledge it.
Children raised in love will know it, even through change. Our kids design our habits more than they hear our words; if they see that we have the self-love required to make tough modifications, they will, too.
Im sorry you are going through a tough time.

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